i m mom.


Cassie is now a little girl, she's now a little girl, she's now ... i've been reminding myself over that again and again lately.

She has shown more movement capabilities like skipping, jumping backward, karate-moves, dance & etc, and also more mental capabilities, like imaginative play, deduction, discipline, self-awareness and stuff.
Just last nite, she sat down on her bed near her bed time and started her writing routine. She will scribble and then some story telling. This time she's writing about the powerpuff girls and the city of townsville :) She usually recite and write the story at the same time.
Then, she told me : 'i m mommy yeah ?!' (more like announcement than questions) and straight after she said that, she narrow her eyebrows.
I saw that whenever she said i m mommy in her imaginative play-time, her face turned very serious and she will lock her eyebrows.
I then realise this must be how i looked to her !
They said kid is a mirrow to ourselves and i can definitely see her actions, behaviour, speech as a direct reflection of me. I just cannot missed the seriousness, stress and locked eyebrows.
I should really get this stress thingie of mine controlled and reduced. Stress is a creepy clawler that jumps up at you when you don't expect it. This is a pretty good jump, a wake up jump i think. The thing is when ppl asked if i'm stress, my first reaction is to say 'no'. But now, i've learn to face the problems and acknowledge that there are just things that i cannot control nor change. It's still small steps, but hopefully i learned to control my stress level better in the long run.
If you are my mirror dear Cass, i would like to see a prettier me from an already marvelous you.

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